Never wrote a blog so hang in there..Well 6months ago my wife of 12years left. I was hurt but okay cause i had my kids. I love my wife don't get me wrong but the lies and the men i kept finding her with just GOT.. Well I can only forgive her some many times, but she didn't understand why i couldn't forget they happened either.. I am a good man and a good husband and a great father, I just could deal with her anymore.I asked her to make a choice me or the man she had been seeing. Needless to say i lost, but not for long she came back after 2 months might of been 3 months. We worked things out or so i thought, cause after being back home for only 2 months the lies and disrespect started again. This time her lies and inconsistencies were being notice by everyone. Again i love her very much but to have her doing this to me and the kids was to much. I made comments to her again and again she left. This time a little different, I informed her if she chooses to leave us again that I would not ask her back or would I want her back. I know i was really angry at the time and I regret saying most of what I said but I am human. To this day since she has left for what might be the last time, I am still in love but I realize I was actually and probably never loved by her and if I was it had been a long time since she had. So now i realize that loneliness is just not being alone it is the loss of female touch and companionship.