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Please indulge me one more time
Please indulge me one more time He was always the smartest in the class through school. Though he sucked at English. I wrote all his English papers for him, through high school and college. Though with math and science, he was a genius. I remember him telling me how boring Calculus was in high school. I probably told him he was a dick and to shut up. Even though he was still pretty heavy into drugs, alcohol and partying after college, he landed a great job with Southwest Research. Worked there for over 10 , before the drinking finally got him fired. From there, it was all downhill. As a brother, we were close as can be up until I was in about the 7th grade. Wasn't long after that we fought a lot, like most brothers do. Except ours were sometimes a little more severe than the typical sibling fight. I've always felt bad about those fights. But he also told me, a few ago, how it embarrassed him cause I was 3 grades behind him. But now, he appreciated all the times I would fight anyone, to defend him. He was my brother. I didn't always like him, but I always loved him. I found myself avoiding him at times, because of his arrogant and know it all attitude, but I learned a lot from him. I had given up quite a while ago on him ever getting his life together, but he was always my brother. As I wrote about this weekend, he's been in the SICU since last Thursday night. Kidneys were shut down, liver was way out of whack. Due to seizures, most probably, he wasn't responding to commands or voices. We knew he would never want to live like this, from conversations with him, so we made the decision to pull him off of life support. He lasted for an hour and forty minutes when we took him off life support today. But in the end, his life is over. You weren't always the best brother, but God knows I wasn't either. I hope you find the peace, that eluded you for the majority of your life. Even in death, you will always be my brother. " I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx |
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I thought against posting this...but I couldn't find a way to thank all the people who have responded with kind words. Have sent me comforting messages. Texts, emails. It did make a difference, I'm at peace with our decision and our loss. You are a great group of people on here, and I'm happy to call some of you friends. And it's a joy to interact with all of you. Peace. " I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx
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I am so very sorry for your loss my friend but he is now in a better place no more pain and no more suffering. May he rest in peace, and you will always have him with you in your heart..
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Remember the good times you had together. Thinking of you and your family.
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So sorry for your pain now. He is no longer tormented. Hopefully you and you Mother can find some peace with this eventually. Hugs for you.
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I think the decision brought him the peace he couldnt find in life. Thoughts and prayers are with you and yours...big hug
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You will always remember the fun times, the challenges, and that this was the very best fight he lost. It was a kindness to let him go gently to another light. Be at peace with the decision-it was honest (Virtual Symposium Group) use Virtual Symposium Group
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Hang in there P, been there with my brother and the friend I mentioned. When the going gets weird, the weird turn pro. The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.
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I am so sorry. Sending hugs. I hope you are all able to find peace and celebrate the joys he brought to your lives. Thank you for trusting us enough to share his story. "Sometimes the most productive thing you can do is relax." – Mark Black
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Im so sorry for your loss. your family is in my prayers... stories like this... help others stay clean. Im one of them... his life wasnt wasted. Some of us just get lost sometimes.. Im done. I dont want to end up in the ground over it. HUGSSS
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Sorry for your loss. As one who also has a brother, I can relate. May you find the peace you seek. ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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You're a great friend. And yeah..send them Mom's way. She's gonna be a up and down situation for months to come I'm sure. " I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx
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I am so very sorry for your loss my friend but he is now in a better place no more pain and no more suffering. May he rest in peace, and you will always have him with you in your heart.. " I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx
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Remember the good times you had together. Thinking of you and your family. " I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx
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So sorry for your pain now. He is no longer tormented. Hopefully you and you Mother can find some peace with this eventually. Hugs for you. " I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx
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Thanks Loops. It's always hard burying family. But you're right the demons were eating him alive. And now that's gone. " I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx
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I have been sent many messages, calls and texts, from people on here and people just from my life. You're one i would call a friend. So thanks for all you have said. I think he's finally at peace. " I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx
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I think the decision brought him the peace he couldnt find in life. Thoughts and prayers are with you and yours...big hug " I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx
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thanks Jack It's about the same thing I said to him as he went. Rest in peace. " I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx
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You will always remember the fun times, the challenges, and that this was the very best fight he lost. It was a kindness to let him go gently to another light. Be at peace with the decision-it was honest I'll battle with it for a while, but it was the best decision. Thanks Gato. " I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx
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Hang in there P, been there with my brother and the friend I mentioned. " I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx
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Exactly...even when I "hated" him the most. I'd have still fought to the death to defend him. In the end, though, I couldn't defend him from himself. But he was at peace. He died with no pain, I hope I can go the same some day. Just not today... " I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx
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Thanks Lala...that means a lot. And yeah, it looks like his wake will be our early family Christmas get together. But it will be remembered as his last Christmas with us...so . We'll celebrate his life and the good times. " I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx
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I am so sorry. Sending hugs. I hope you are all able to find peace and celebrate the joys he brought to your lives. Thank you for trusting us enough to share his story. We will find our peace. I was raised by some great parents, and now it's my turn to help her through the turmoil. " I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx
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Im so sorry for your loss. your family is in my prayers... stories like this... help others stay clean. Im one of them... his life wasnt wasted. Some of us just get lost sometimes.. Im done. I dont want to end up in the ground over it. HUGSSS It's just another day tomorrow...live it clean and strong. " I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx
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Thank you so much. . " I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx
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